關(guān)于愛(ài)情的英語(yǔ)作文：我想，我還不夠絕望

I think I'm not despair, or how each instant is pleased to receive your information, salutation masters of the time, or will happily in no mediated and you to have a meal together. I think I was not enough, or how the last time you asked me about the girl's face acne how to treat, so anxious, I still can accurately tell you the hospital address, the doctor surnamed sang, and then think of her Zhang Changman acne face, suddenly silent. I think I'm not despair, knowing their bet with oneself and odds is almost zero, but still stubborn, choose so quietly ready to appear, as long as you need my help. I want to say I'm sorry, this morning, when you give the students in class, I on the table outside see the black notebook, I thought of students, readily scanned and turn to last few pages, see a few lines of the poem. I'm sorry, I've read it carefully. I, tears. I know you want to be in heaven's mother. At that time, you are so desperate, I tell you, the amount of heaven, there must be, or those who lost their way to find the way home. I almost forget the last time you have the dark days, only half a year, you, how can so easily forget it. You say, mom, I'm so lonely. You said it was raining in Lanzhou. Many years ago, your mother will be in your backpack. You also said that you miss her. I, suddenly feel no way. All people, all people in the world, know so much, know so much, but deep down that hurdle, or anyway and it is not in the past.! I'm sorry, your sadness, I can not understand, I can not think of. But I remember what I had said, if this world, mom and dad is not in, I can not live. Even now it's the same. Know the life at the bottom of the loneliness, however, is no way to take, even love, affection, friendship, entirely, a little way. However, the warmth of their loved ones, I have to keep. Watching you write down the text, I do not have to express, take a piece of paper, quietly write a few lines of words, the window of the wind floating from the window, quietly floating. The sun is still warm. You don't see it, you don't have a relationship. If I knew she would come, I would not go to dinner with you. She sat next to you, opposite to me, smiled at me, that smile, like a person, she, you said this is my elder sister, this is my girlfriend's sister, say in one breath. Just a bite of food in the mouth, it is difficult to swallow. Want to leave, but still eat a meal, normal to say hello to leave. The feeling in my throat. This time, it was fun, huh, huh. Has been in the heart to wonder where she is, in fact, where she is not important, important is that she has been in his heart. Walking in the campus Avenue, or will the wind tears, a blank mind, all the memory is instantly cut off. I don't know what is the matter, the heart, no matter how the turning over the face of the devastation, or not to put down. I hate myself, I can take a good warm treat myself, but why should I pull into this relationship. Night, write a microblogging, do not want to, but dare not. How many times, I want to ask you where, what, in the dry what, eat no, but, hesitation, or put down the phone. I think, I still not enough of despair, or don't feel oneself scarred. Because not all of your tears.
    我想我還不夠絕望，要不怎么每次在欣然接到你的信息，開(kāi)頭稱(chēng)呼師姐的時(shí)候，還是會(huì)高高興興的霎無(wú)介是和你一起去吃飯呢。
    我想我還不夠絕望，要不怎么上次在你問(wèn)我女孩臉上的痘痘怎么治，口氣那么著急，我還是準(zhǔn)確的告訴你醫(yī)院地址，醫(yī)生姓桑，說(shuō)完便想起她那張長(zhǎng)滿(mǎn)痘痘的臉，頓時(shí)沉默。
    我想我還不夠絕望，明知道自己在和自己賭，而且勝算幾乎為零，但是還是執(zhí)拗的，選擇這樣靜靜的 準(zhǔn)備隨時(shí)出現(xiàn)，只要你需要我的幫助。
    我想說(shuō)對(duì)不起，今天早上，在你給學(xué)生上課的時(shí)候，我在外面的茶幾上看到一本黑色的筆記本，我以為是學(xué)生的，隨手翻看，翻到后幾頁(yè)，看到幾行詩(shī)。對(duì)不起，我，認(rèn)真讀過(guò)。我，流淚了。我知道你是想在天堂的媽媽了。那時(shí)候，你是那樣絕望，我告訴你，天堂有的額，一定會(huì)有的，要不那些迷路的孩子怎么找到回家的路呢。我?guī)缀跬司嚯x上次你的黑暗的日子，才不過(guò)短短半年，你，怎么能那么輕易就遺忘呢。你說(shuō)，媽媽?zhuān)液霉陋?dú)。你說(shuō)蘭州下了一場(chǎng)雨。你所很多年前，你的媽媽會(huì)在你的背包了塞東西，你還說(shuō)，你很想念她。
    我，頓時(shí)覺(jué)得毫無(wú)辦法。所有人，這世間所有的人，知道那么多，懂得那么多，但是內(nèi)心深處的那道坎，還是無(wú)論如何也是越不過(guò)去的吧！對(duì)不起，你的那份憂(yōu)傷，我體會(huì)不了，我也想想不來(lái)。只是我記得自己曾經(jīng)說(shuō)過(guò)的話(huà)，如果這個(gè)世界上，爸爸媽媽不在了，我沒(méi)辦法活。就算到現(xiàn)在也一樣。
    知道生命底里的那份孤獨(dú)，無(wú)論如何也是沒(méi)辦法拿去，就算愛(ài)情，親情，友情，通通的，都一點(diǎn)辦法也沒(méi)有。但是，親人的那份溫情，我一定還要保有。
    看著你寫(xiě)下的而文字，我無(wú)以表達(dá)，抽出一張紙，靜靜的寫(xiě)下幾行字，窗外清風(fēng)浮起窗簾，靜靜的飄。陽(yáng)光依舊溫暖。你沒(méi)有看到吧，一點(diǎn)也沒(méi)有關(guān)系。
    如果知道她要過(guò)來(lái)，我斷然不會(huì)和你一起去吃飯。她坐在你的旁邊，我的對(duì)面，沖我一笑，那微笑，像極了一個(gè)人，她，你說(shuō)這是我的師姐，這是我女朋友的妹妹，一口氣說(shuō)出。剛一口飯放入口中，很難下咽。想要先離開(kāi)，但還是吃完了飯，正常的打聲招呼離開(kāi)。感覺(jué)如鯁在喉。
    這次，終于好玩了吧，呵呵。一直在心里琢磨她究竟在哪里，其實(shí)她在哪里都不重要，重要的是，她一直在他心里。
    走在校園林蔭道，還是會(huì)迎風(fēng)流淚的吧，腦子一片空白，一切的記憶被瞬間掐斷。
    我不知道自己究竟是怎么了，那顆心，無(wú)論怎樣的翻里掉面的蹂躪，還是不肯放下。我恨我自己，明明可以好好的溫暖的對(duì)待自己，但是為什么要這樣把自己扯入這樣的關(guān)系。
    昨晚臨睡前，寫(xiě)了條微博，不是不想，而是不敢。多少次，想要問(wèn)問(wèn)你在哪里，在干什么，吃飯了沒(méi)，但是，猶豫再三，還是放下手機(jī)。
    我想，我還是不夠絕望，還是不覺(jué)得自己傷痕累累。因?yàn)?，眼淚還沒(méi)有流干。