When to get upset, and no sense of belonging. Then blindly self willed to blame, this is not my fault, so anxious, and his childish. Could not help but want to exile and stray. Sue still looks pale, like cattail like floating.
Sue first travel alone, is a long summer vacation, and then saw him for the first time. Sue had intended to one ride from Chengdu to Lhasa, riding a ten day, passing the Xining, Xining little hotel with side wall of advertising, has a cartoon attracted Su is a boy in an exaggerated picture, wrote the following a line of small print, car phone, Sue wants to try the tourists feel, hit in the past, each other speak pure Mandarin, pronunciation, used his voice to speak out, Jiangnan gentle and soft, is very nice. Sue him an appointment.
He drove a superannuated old military jeep, but clean too, white cotton shirt yo clean, smiling, calm, calm and transparent, from afar, and a little from social taste. Su slightly surprised, did not say, one day to be prompted by a sudden impulse to bargain, chartered from 50 down to 30. He did not wake up like a nod. Sue also remember the car retained the old cassette player, he puts cheer travel, along with the whistle. This song Su, then listen to a lot of times, he had no car in a cassette.
He suddenly began to speak to himself, Su is not strange, but also do not ask questions. In the loop of the tape, listen to his story. He is five years older than the Soviet Union, the university did not finish ran out, from Beijing to Inner Mongolia, Xinjiang, Tibet, Gansu, Zinge
The air in the west is free, he says. He has been to Tacheng, Xinjiang, where there is a corps of farms, the vast prairie vast boundless. He said that people in the frontier feeling is not the same, standing on the distant frontier, the scenery is very monotonous, sometimes surprisingly quiet, quiet as the world's end, let people feel small, sometimes, there is a lot of wind, from the border to blow over, walking in the direction of the wind, and feel that they have not come to the world. I do not know why, Su felt that he was a little sad. He never stops in one place for too long, maybe it's time to be in love, tired, and gone.
Su asked him what to eat and drink whatever, he said, no money, little work to earn some money, always alive. A month ago, he one car street in Xining, money is spent, a buddy to shelter him. His name is the man called nagging, Xining. Although the nagging words, but the human sense of justice, to help him pull a little loose money to live. That night they went to sue and culture street to eat dry noodles, like acquaintance. Sue told him that he would ride to Lhasa in a few days. He casually said, he also went to.
The two days, he borrowed bicycle, take sue to turn west Ningcheng, Nanshan, Beishan, Hui Street, Shuijing, a along the Huangshui River to the West riding, rode all the way to the sparsely populated villages. Su Youqi likes the feeling of riding along the river, said it is not clear why, Su Shuiyou extra affection. Su asked him, this is the longest river in Xining it? He said, not only the longest, or the whole of Xining and Qinghai lifeline. Perhaps the soul, Su said, he said, the next time you take you to the west, where there is a canyon, the Soviet Union would like to.
Su did not think, he really and he set out together, more puzzling is that, he is a call, the nagging also followed. The night before leaving, Su to nag home tidy up thing for them, a pretty girl at the door him, crying refused to go. He does not care about the appearance, like an outsider. Is the nagging to persuade, the girl persuaded to go. When she turned around, she looked at her with a hostile look.
Sue asked him, do you have a girlfriend? He said that the family was arranged.
One afternoon in July, three people from Xining, the Soviet Union, to ride to Lhasa. Along the way, the three became a companion in adversity. Sue also finally understand why he is so love on the road. On the way, he is luminous, so free, romantic, and soul. One of his own Scarecrow on his bicycle in front of the handlebar, he gave it a name, called a rui. He stepped on his foot in a crazy way, singing loudly to the. He is very fickle. There was once a wrong way, more than a dozen kilometers away, in the back of the time, he said, you two go, I'm going to go wrong. He took a lazy expression, qiancou. But I do not know why, everyone is attracted to him. Su could not guess he changed his mind again and is willing to make a U-turn and sue them to walk together, has been the cat fell into the river to the, he jumped into the water to cats, save up, after landing forgot myself to walk alone. On the Qinghai Tibet line on the National Road, often can ride a ride to the young people in Lhasa, the Soviet Union, the original three people into the ranks of seven people. These people would become something of speech, friends with complete mutual understanding, all right do not contact. Su went to Beijing after school, one day, Su received his phone call, said he returned to Beijing, and then about in the coffee shop. Face to face, Sue felt a bit absurd. He told sue, he had just returned from Tibet, there is snow. Three Huanlu building outside wall into the parking lot, everyone was wearing a mask, everyone. Sue listen to those distant stories, I wish, in the city of civilization, two hearts can not stick together. Su said to go out for a walk, two people on the curb sitting, attracting the eyes of many people, Su is simply the phone off, this time feeling came back, he suddenly told sue, his grandmother died. That's the first time he saw him crying like a child. Sue asked him, still go? He closed his eyes, did not talk to sue. Sue thought of the summer of Xining, like the willow, not the same as the wind. Grandma after the funeral, he started again, leaving the night before to find sue, they chatted all night. Su recalled that night from Lhasa back to Xining, the Soviet Union they were a few in the restaurant to eat. He went to Restroom, several Bludger table next to sue tease the poor. He asked sue to leave. Sue just went out, and he took the wine bottle on the table to make somebody else. He's playing up the shelf. Until the police came. He still did not stop, covered in blood, with a heroic spirit. Su asked him, how to see her friend, he joked, afraid to fly too far, forget where they are, so it needs a coordinate. Su smiled, in fact, he is also the coordinates of Su Su, Su Shou in the reality of boredom, so that he was wandering for their own. Second days to go to school, he sleeps on the sofa in the living room. By the time he came back, he was gone. Leave a cartoon, a sister of the little girl, the little foot horseshoe, eating a piece of cotton candy. Sue is not without him. Have a year of winter, people hammering on Sue's door, he stood at the door, bearded, Su was surprised to discover that, he did not in is the first meeting of the pale eyes bright boy, though, he and Sue, still young. Sue still said nothing, into the kitchen to the first two packets of instant noodles, hit two eggs,. He did not say anything, buried in the world, a person is willing to give him the most ugly look, you only feel grateful. Sue watched him drunk and then become unconscious way, take care of him like a man. What the Soviet Union did not ask, listen to him confused muttering, really tired, want to stop. But Sue, who else, will stray for us. For an instant, Su suddenly wanted to shed tears. Once again received his phone call, is in the summer, he said, nagging to get married, go to Xining. That year went to Tibet together with friends. Few years has not seen, these have vowed a lifetime on the road, most of them have stopped, nothing is fresh, are parked in a tired place. On that day, all people in addition to sue, drink be completely drunken. They went back, Sue asked for a leave, would like to stay a few days, Sue asked him where the next stop? He smiled, Sue, actually I also compromise. Starting from Xining, along the great peaks, stretches. Birds linger. That's what he said. He will hand the cigarette bounced away, stood up and said, go swimming. Sue said she didn't bring her bathing suit. He made a cut of expression and jumped into the water. Like a fish, he swam to the Soviet front, hand grabbed her ankle, it shall prevent himself into the water su. Sue heard him laugh, a moment without a temper. By the evening, everything becomes quiet. Su saw his calm face in the setting sun, with tears in his eyes. Over the past few years again, Su's life has become calm, he also never contact sue, but Su know, he is very good, the full avenue of the newspaper is his name, Su smile, no idea. Su mixed good, but always feel missing something. Perhaps, life is a beach in every possible way, the river, the Soviet Union did not turn him into a lake. After graduating from University, the Soviet Union continue to start, from the river to the west of Huangshui River to go, passing through the city of Xining, through the Grand Canyon West, across the Riyue mountain, through the Qinghai Lake, through the Huangshui River originates, when the Silk Road through the place - - - - - - when the journey home, Su saw gorge was a familiar face to in fact so many years, is himself standing in situ, see the world wandering.
什么時(shí)候變得不安，和沒(méi)有歸屬感。然后還一味任性地埋怨，這不是我的錯(cuò)，如此焦躁，和孩子氣的自己。忍不住的想放逐和流浪。蘇看著依舊蒼白的自己，像蒲草一樣飄來(lái)飄去。 蘇第一次單獨(dú)遠(yuǎn)行，是一個(gè)漫長(zhǎng)的暑假，然后第一次見(jiàn)到他。蘇本來(lái)打算一個(gè)人從成都騎車去拉薩，騎了十來(lái)天，路過(guò)了西寧，西寧的小旅館有一面廣告墻，有一副漫畫吸引了蘇，是一個(gè)男孩夸張的頭像，下面寫了一行小字，包車電話，蘇想嘗試一下游客的感覺(jué)，就打過(guò)去，對(duì)方說(shuō)純正的普通話，字正腔圓，可用他的嗓音說(shuō)出來(lái)，有江南的溫潤(rùn)與柔和，很是好聽(tīng)，蘇和他約好時(shí)間。 他開(kāi)著一輛老掉牙的軍用吉普，人卻干凈的過(guò)分，白色的棉布襯衣落落無(wú)塵，微笑，淡定，從容，透明，遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)望去，還有一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)離索群居的味道。蘇微微詫異，可不曾過(guò)問(wèn)，心血來(lái)潮地砍價(jià)，包車一天從50砍到30。他沒(méi)睡醒似的點(diǎn)頭。蘇還記得那輛車子還保留著老式的卡帶機(jī)，他放著陳綺貞的旅行的意義，跟著一起吹口哨。這首歌，蘇后來(lái)聽(tīng)了很多遍，都沒(méi)有他車上沙啞的卡帶好聽(tīng)。 他突然開(kāi)始自言自語(yǔ)，蘇不奇怪，也不發(fā)問(wèn)。在那張磁帶反復(fù)的循環(huán)中，聽(tīng)他講流浪的故事。他比蘇大了5歲，大學(xué)沒(méi)讀完就跑出來(lái)了，從北京到內(nèi)蒙古，新疆，西藏，甘肅，青?！ぁぁぁぁぁ?西邊的空氣自由，他說(shuō)。他到過(guò)新疆的塔城，那里有兵團(tuán)的農(nóng)場(chǎng)，大草原遼闊無(wú)邊。他說(shuō)，人在邊疆感覺(jué)會(huì)不一樣，站在遙遠(yuǎn)的邊境線上，風(fēng)景其實(shí)很單調(diào)，有時(shí)候，出奇的安靜，安靜得像世界的末日，讓人覺(jué)得渺小，有時(shí)候，有很大的風(fēng)，從邊境線上吹過(guò)來(lái)，走在風(fēng)吹過(guò)來(lái)的方向，又覺(jué)得自己總算沒(méi)白來(lái)世上一遭。不知為何，蘇覺(jué)得他有些憂傷。他從不會(huì)在一個(gè)地方停留太久，也許是一場(chǎng)戀愛(ài)的時(shí)間，厭倦了，也就走了。 蘇問(wèn)他吃啥喝啥，他說(shuō)，沒(méi)錢了，打點(diǎn)小工掙點(diǎn)錢，總能活著。一個(gè)月錢，他一人一車流浪在西寧，錢花光了，一個(gè)哥們收留了他，他叫那人叫嘮叨，是西寧人。嘮叨雖然話多，但人仗義，幫他拉點(diǎn)散活賺錢。那晚蘇和他們?nèi)ノ幕殖愿砂杳?，像熟人一樣。蘇告訴他，過(guò)幾天就騎車去拉薩了。他隨口說(shuō)，他也去。 那兩天，他借了輛自行車，帶蘇去轉(zhuǎn)西寧城，南山，北山，回民街，水井巷，有一次沿著湟水河向西騎，一直騎到人煙稀少的村落。蘇尤其喜歡沿著河流騎行的感覺(jué)，說(shuō)不清楚為什么，蘇水有著格外的感情。蘇問(wèn)他，這是西寧最長(zhǎng)的河嗎？他說(shuō)，不僅最長(zhǎng)，還是整個(gè)西寧和青海的命脈。也許是魂，蘇說(shuō)，他說(shuō)，下次帶你往西邊走，那里有一個(gè)峽谷，蘇一定會(huì)喜歡。 蘇沒(méi)有想到，他真的和自己一起出發(fā)，更讓人不解的是，他一聲召喚，嘮叨也跟著去了。臨走前一晚，蘇去嘮叨家?guī)退麄兪帐皷|西，一個(gè)挺漂亮的女孩在門口等他，哭哭啼啼地不肯走。他一副不在乎的模樣，像個(gè)局外人。是嘮叨不停地勸，把女孩勸走了。她轉(zhuǎn)身的時(shí)候，敵意地看了蘇幾眼。 蘇問(wèn)他，你女朋友嗎？他說(shuō)，家里人安排的。 七月的一個(gè)中午，蘇他們?nèi)藦奈鲗幊霭l(fā)，騎車去拉薩。一路上三人成了患難之交。蘇也終于明白，他為什么如此熱愛(ài)路上。路上的他，是發(fā)光的，如此自由，浪漫和，有靈魂。在他的自行車前面的車把上有一個(gè)他自己編的稻草人，他還給它起了一個(gè)名字，叫阿睿。他瘋狂地踩著腳踏板，對(duì)著阿睿大聲的歌唱。 他非常的善變。有一次走錯(cuò)了路，多騎了十幾公里，在掉頭的時(shí)候，他說(shuō)，你們倆走吧，我就按著錯(cuò)的走。他帶著懶散的表情，很欠揍的樣子。但不知為何，每個(gè)人都被他吸引。蘇猜不透他再次改變主意，愿意掉頭和蘇他們一起走的原因，一直貓掉進(jìn)河里去了，他跳進(jìn)水里把貓救起來(lái)，上岸后就忘了自己要獨(dú)行。 青藏線上的國(guó)道上時(shí)常能碰到騎車去拉薩的年輕人，蘇他們?cè)热说年?duì)伍變成七個(gè)人。這些人后來(lái)都變成了莫逆之交，有事兒就言語(yǔ)，沒(méi)事兒不聯(lián)系。 蘇后來(lái)去了北京上學(xué)，有一天蘇接到他的電話，說(shuō)他回北京了，然后約在咖啡館。面對(duì)面坐著，蘇覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)荒唐。他告訴蘇，他剛從藏區(qū)回來(lái)，那邊正在下雪呢。大廈外面的三環(huán)路堵成了停車場(chǎng)，人人焦躁不安，人人帶著面具。蘇聽(tīng)著那些遙遠(yuǎn)的故事，心想，在城市的文明里，兩顆心貼不到一起去。 蘇說(shuō)出去走走吧，兩人馬路牙子上坐著，吸引了不少人的眼光，蘇索性把手機(jī)關(guān)機(jī)，這時(shí)候感覺(jué)才回來(lái)，他突然告訴蘇，他奶奶死了。那是蘇第一次見(jiàn)他哭，像個(gè)孩子。 蘇問(wèn)他，還走嗎？他閉上眼睛，沒(méi)搭理蘇。蘇想起西寧的夏天，一樣的柳樹，不一樣的風(fēng)。 奶奶葬禮結(jié)束后，他又出發(fā)了，臨走的前一天晚上找蘇，他們聊了一夜。蘇想起從拉薩回西寧的那晚，蘇他們幾個(gè)在餐廳吃飯。他去洗手間，鄰桌的幾個(gè)混混跟蘇逗貧。他讓蘇先走。蘇剛出門，他就抄起桌上的酒瓶拍人家。他打起架來(lái)不要命。直到警察來(lái)了他還沒(méi)有停下，滿身是血，帶著逼人的英氣。 蘇問(wèn)他，怎樣看她這個(gè)朋友，他開(kāi)玩笑說(shuō)，怕飛的太遠(yuǎn)了，忘記自己在哪兒，所以就需要一個(gè)坐標(biāo)。蘇笑了，其實(shí)他也是蘇的坐標(biāo)，蘇守在無(wú)聊的現(xiàn)實(shí)里，讓他替自己流浪。第二天蘇去學(xué)校，他睡在客廳的沙發(fā)上。等蘇回來(lái)的時(shí)候，他已經(jīng)不見(jiàn)了。留下一張漫畫，一個(gè)妹妹的小女孩，腳踩小馬蹄，正在吃一片棉花糖。 蘇也不是沒(méi)有見(jiàn)他真心愛(ài)過(guò)。有一年的冬夜，有人砰砰敲蘇的門，他站在門外，胡子拉碴，蘇詫異地發(fā)現(xiàn)，他不在是初見(jiàn)面的那個(gè)面容蒼白眼神明亮的少年了，雖然，他還有蘇，依然年輕。蘇還是什么都沒(méi)說(shuō)，進(jìn)廚房先下兩包方便面，打兩個(gè)雞蛋，。他也什么都沒(méi)說(shuō)，埋頭吃完，在這個(gè)世界上，一個(gè)人愿意把他最難看的樣子給你看，你唯有心存感激。蘇看著他醉的不省人事的樣子，然后像哥們一樣照顧他。蘇什么也沒(méi)有問(wèn)，聽(tīng)他迷糊著嘟囔，真的走累了，要停下來(lái)了。可是蘇，還有誰(shuí)，會(huì)替我們流浪。 一瞬間，蘇突然就想要流淚。 再次接到他的電話，是在夏天，他說(shuō)，嘮叨要結(jié)婚了，去西寧吧。當(dāng)年一起去西藏的朋友全到齊了。幾年未見(jiàn)，這些當(dāng)初發(fā)誓一輩子在路上的人，大多數(shù)都停了下來(lái)，沒(méi)什么新鮮的，都是停在一個(gè)累的地方。那天，所有人除了蘇，都喝的酩酊大醉。 他們陸續(xù)回去了，蘇請(qǐng)了假，想多呆幾天，蘇問(wèn)他下一站去哪？他苦笑著，蘇，其實(shí)我也妥協(xié)了。 從西寧出發(fā)，沿著湟水泱泱，奇峰延綿。水鳥流連。這就是他所說(shuō)的峽谷。 他將手里的煙頭彈向遠(yuǎn)方，站起來(lái)說(shuō)，游泳去吧。蘇說(shuō)她沒(méi)有帶泳衣。他做了一個(gè)切的表情，跳進(jìn)了水里。像一條魚一樣，他游到蘇的面前，手抓住她的腳踝，蘇就防不勝防地落入水中。蘇聽(tīng)見(jiàn)他大笑，一瞬間就沒(méi)了脾氣。等到了傍晚的時(shí)候，一切變得安靜。蘇看他在夕陽(yáng)下平靜的面孔，淚流滿面。 幾年又過(guò)去了，蘇的生活變得平靜，他也再?zèng)]有聯(lián)系過(guò)蘇，但蘇知道，他過(guò)得很好，滿大街的報(bào)紙上都是他的名字，蘇笑笑，沒(méi)什么想法。 蘇混的不錯(cuò)，卻總覺(jué)得缺少了點(diǎn)什么?；蛟S，生活是一灘百般無(wú)聊的河水，蘇并沒(méi)有把他游成江湖。 大學(xué)畢業(yè)之后，蘇繼續(xù)出發(fā)，從湟水往河的西邊走，穿過(guò)西寧城，穿過(guò)西峽谷，穿過(guò)日月山，穿過(guò)青海湖，穿過(guò)湟水發(fā)源的地方，當(dāng)年絲綢之路經(jīng)過(guò)的地方······當(dāng)踏上歸途的時(shí)候，蘇看見(jiàn)峽谷那張熟悉的面孔時(shí)想，其實(shí)那么多年，都是自己站在原地，看世界流浪。
One afternoon in July, three people from Xining, the Soviet Union, to ride to Lhasa. Along the way, the three became a companion in adversity. Sue also finally understand why he is so love on the road. On the way, he is luminous, so free, romantic, and soul. One of his own Scarecrow on his bicycle in front of the handlebar, he gave it a name, called a rui. He stepped on his foot in a crazy way, singing loudly to the. He is very fickle. There was once a wrong way, more than a dozen kilometers away, in the back of the time, he said, you two go, I'm going to go wrong. He took a lazy expression, qiancou. But I do not know why, everyone is attracted to him. Su could not guess he changed his mind again and is willing to make a U-turn and sue them to walk together, has been the cat fell into the river to the, he jumped into the water to cats, save up, after landing forgot myself to walk alone. On the Qinghai Tibet line on the National Road, often can ride a ride to the young people in Lhasa, the Soviet Union, the original three people into the ranks of seven people. These people would become something of speech, friends with complete mutual understanding, all right do not contact. Su went to Beijing after school, one day, Su received his phone call, said he returned to Beijing, and then about in the coffee shop. Face to face, Sue felt a bit absurd. He told sue, he had just returned from Tibet, there is snow. Three Huanlu building outside wall into the parking lot, everyone was wearing a mask, everyone. Sue listen to those distant stories, I wish, in the city of civilization, two hearts can not stick together. Su said to go out for a walk, two people on the curb sitting, attracting the eyes of many people, Su is simply the phone off, this time feeling came back, he suddenly told sue, his grandmother died. That's the first time he saw him crying like a child. Sue asked him, still go? He closed his eyes, did not talk to sue. Sue thought of the summer of Xining, like the willow, not the same as the wind. Grandma after the funeral, he started again, leaving the night before to find sue, they chatted all night. Su recalled that night from Lhasa back to Xining, the Soviet Union they were a few in the restaurant to eat. He went to Restroom, several Bludger table next to sue tease the poor. He asked sue to leave. Sue just went out, and he took the wine bottle on the table to make somebody else. He's playing up the shelf. Until the police came. He still did not stop, covered in blood, with a heroic spirit. Su asked him, how to see her friend, he joked, afraid to fly too far, forget where they are, so it needs a coordinate. Su smiled, in fact, he is also the coordinates of Su Su, Su Shou in the reality of boredom, so that he was wandering for their own. Second days to go to school, he sleeps on the sofa in the living room. By the time he came back, he was gone. Leave a cartoon, a sister of the little girl, the little foot horseshoe, eating a piece of cotton candy. Sue is not without him. Have a year of winter, people hammering on Sue's door, he stood at the door, bearded, Su was surprised to discover that, he did not in is the first meeting of the pale eyes bright boy, though, he and Sue, still young. Sue still said nothing, into the kitchen to the first two packets of instant noodles, hit two eggs,. He did not say anything, buried in the world, a person is willing to give him the most ugly look, you only feel grateful. Sue watched him drunk and then become unconscious way, take care of him like a man. What the Soviet Union did not ask, listen to him confused muttering, really tired, want to stop. But Sue, who else, will stray for us. For an instant, Su suddenly wanted to shed tears. Once again received his phone call, is in the summer, he said, nagging to get married, go to Xining. That year went to Tibet together with friends. Few years has not seen, these have vowed a lifetime on the road, most of them have stopped, nothing is fresh, are parked in a tired place. On that day, all people in addition to sue, drink be completely drunken. They went back, Sue asked for a leave, would like to stay a few days, Sue asked him where the next stop? He smiled, Sue, actually I also compromise. Starting from Xining, along the great peaks, stretches. Birds linger. That's what he said. He will hand the cigarette bounced away, stood up and said, go swimming. Sue said she didn't bring her bathing suit. He made a cut of expression and jumped into the water. Like a fish, he swam to the Soviet front, hand grabbed her ankle, it shall prevent himself into the water su. Sue heard him laugh, a moment without a temper. By the evening, everything becomes quiet. Su saw his calm face in the setting sun, with tears in his eyes. Over the past few years again, Su's life has become calm, he also never contact sue, but Su know, he is very good, the full avenue of the newspaper is his name, Su smile, no idea. Su mixed good, but always feel missing something. Perhaps, life is a beach in every possible way, the river, the Soviet Union did not turn him into a lake. After graduating from University, the Soviet Union continue to start, from the river to the west of Huangshui River to go, passing through the city of Xining, through the Grand Canyon West, across the Riyue mountain, through the Qinghai Lake, through the Huangshui River originates, when the Silk Road through the place - - - - - - when the journey home, Su saw gorge was a familiar face to in fact so many years, is himself standing in situ, see the world wandering.
什么時(shí)候變得不安，和沒(méi)有歸屬感。然后還一味任性地埋怨，這不是我的錯(cuò)，如此焦躁，和孩子氣的自己。忍不住的想放逐和流浪。蘇看著依舊蒼白的自己，像蒲草一樣飄來(lái)飄去。 蘇第一次單獨(dú)遠(yuǎn)行，是一個(gè)漫長(zhǎng)的暑假，然后第一次見(jiàn)到他。蘇本來(lái)打算一個(gè)人從成都騎車去拉薩，騎了十來(lái)天，路過(guò)了西寧，西寧的小旅館有一面廣告墻，有一副漫畫吸引了蘇，是一個(gè)男孩夸張的頭像，下面寫了一行小字，包車電話，蘇想嘗試一下游客的感覺(jué)，就打過(guò)去，對(duì)方說(shuō)純正的普通話，字正腔圓，可用他的嗓音說(shuō)出來(lái)，有江南的溫潤(rùn)與柔和，很是好聽(tīng)，蘇和他約好時(shí)間。 他開(kāi)著一輛老掉牙的軍用吉普，人卻干凈的過(guò)分，白色的棉布襯衣落落無(wú)塵，微笑，淡定，從容，透明，遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)望去，還有一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)離索群居的味道。蘇微微詫異，可不曾過(guò)問(wèn)，心血來(lái)潮地砍價(jià)，包車一天從50砍到30。他沒(méi)睡醒似的點(diǎn)頭。蘇還記得那輛車子還保留著老式的卡帶機(jī)，他放著陳綺貞的旅行的意義，跟著一起吹口哨。這首歌，蘇后來(lái)聽(tīng)了很多遍，都沒(méi)有他車上沙啞的卡帶好聽(tīng)。 他突然開(kāi)始自言自語(yǔ)，蘇不奇怪，也不發(fā)問(wèn)。在那張磁帶反復(fù)的循環(huán)中，聽(tīng)他講流浪的故事。他比蘇大了5歲，大學(xué)沒(méi)讀完就跑出來(lái)了，從北京到內(nèi)蒙古，新疆，西藏，甘肅，青?！ぁぁぁぁぁ?西邊的空氣自由，他說(shuō)。他到過(guò)新疆的塔城，那里有兵團(tuán)的農(nóng)場(chǎng)，大草原遼闊無(wú)邊。他說(shuō)，人在邊疆感覺(jué)會(huì)不一樣，站在遙遠(yuǎn)的邊境線上，風(fēng)景其實(shí)很單調(diào)，有時(shí)候，出奇的安靜，安靜得像世界的末日，讓人覺(jué)得渺小，有時(shí)候，有很大的風(fēng)，從邊境線上吹過(guò)來(lái)，走在風(fēng)吹過(guò)來(lái)的方向，又覺(jué)得自己總算沒(méi)白來(lái)世上一遭。不知為何，蘇覺(jué)得他有些憂傷。他從不會(huì)在一個(gè)地方停留太久，也許是一場(chǎng)戀愛(ài)的時(shí)間，厭倦了，也就走了。 蘇問(wèn)他吃啥喝啥，他說(shuō)，沒(méi)錢了，打點(diǎn)小工掙點(diǎn)錢，總能活著。一個(gè)月錢，他一人一車流浪在西寧，錢花光了，一個(gè)哥們收留了他，他叫那人叫嘮叨，是西寧人。嘮叨雖然話多，但人仗義，幫他拉點(diǎn)散活賺錢。那晚蘇和他們?nèi)ノ幕殖愿砂杳?，像熟人一樣。蘇告訴他，過(guò)幾天就騎車去拉薩了。他隨口說(shuō)，他也去。 那兩天，他借了輛自行車，帶蘇去轉(zhuǎn)西寧城，南山，北山，回民街，水井巷，有一次沿著湟水河向西騎，一直騎到人煙稀少的村落。蘇尤其喜歡沿著河流騎行的感覺(jué)，說(shuō)不清楚為什么，蘇水有著格外的感情。蘇問(wèn)他，這是西寧最長(zhǎng)的河嗎？他說(shuō)，不僅最長(zhǎng)，還是整個(gè)西寧和青海的命脈。也許是魂，蘇說(shuō)，他說(shuō)，下次帶你往西邊走，那里有一個(gè)峽谷，蘇一定會(huì)喜歡。 蘇沒(méi)有想到，他真的和自己一起出發(fā)，更讓人不解的是，他一聲召喚，嘮叨也跟著去了。臨走前一晚，蘇去嘮叨家?guī)退麄兪帐皷|西，一個(gè)挺漂亮的女孩在門口等他，哭哭啼啼地不肯走。他一副不在乎的模樣，像個(gè)局外人。是嘮叨不停地勸，把女孩勸走了。她轉(zhuǎn)身的時(shí)候，敵意地看了蘇幾眼。 蘇問(wèn)他，你女朋友嗎？他說(shuō)，家里人安排的。 七月的一個(gè)中午，蘇他們?nèi)藦奈鲗幊霭l(fā)，騎車去拉薩。一路上三人成了患難之交。蘇也終于明白，他為什么如此熱愛(ài)路上。路上的他，是發(fā)光的，如此自由，浪漫和，有靈魂。在他的自行車前面的車把上有一個(gè)他自己編的稻草人，他還給它起了一個(gè)名字，叫阿睿。他瘋狂地踩著腳踏板，對(duì)著阿睿大聲的歌唱。 他非常的善變。有一次走錯(cuò)了路，多騎了十幾公里，在掉頭的時(shí)候，他說(shuō)，你們倆走吧，我就按著錯(cuò)的走。他帶著懶散的表情，很欠揍的樣子。但不知為何，每個(gè)人都被他吸引。蘇猜不透他再次改變主意，愿意掉頭和蘇他們一起走的原因，一直貓掉進(jìn)河里去了，他跳進(jìn)水里把貓救起來(lái)，上岸后就忘了自己要獨(dú)行。 青藏線上的國(guó)道上時(shí)常能碰到騎車去拉薩的年輕人，蘇他們?cè)热说年?duì)伍變成七個(gè)人。這些人后來(lái)都變成了莫逆之交，有事兒就言語(yǔ)，沒(méi)事兒不聯(lián)系。 蘇后來(lái)去了北京上學(xué)，有一天蘇接到他的電話，說(shuō)他回北京了，然后約在咖啡館。面對(duì)面坐著，蘇覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)荒唐。他告訴蘇，他剛從藏區(qū)回來(lái)，那邊正在下雪呢。大廈外面的三環(huán)路堵成了停車場(chǎng)，人人焦躁不安，人人帶著面具。蘇聽(tīng)著那些遙遠(yuǎn)的故事，心想，在城市的文明里，兩顆心貼不到一起去。 蘇說(shuō)出去走走吧，兩人馬路牙子上坐著，吸引了不少人的眼光，蘇索性把手機(jī)關(guān)機(jī)，這時(shí)候感覺(jué)才回來(lái)，他突然告訴蘇，他奶奶死了。那是蘇第一次見(jiàn)他哭，像個(gè)孩子。 蘇問(wèn)他，還走嗎？他閉上眼睛，沒(méi)搭理蘇。蘇想起西寧的夏天，一樣的柳樹，不一樣的風(fēng)。 奶奶葬禮結(jié)束后，他又出發(fā)了，臨走的前一天晚上找蘇，他們聊了一夜。蘇想起從拉薩回西寧的那晚，蘇他們幾個(gè)在餐廳吃飯。他去洗手間，鄰桌的幾個(gè)混混跟蘇逗貧。他讓蘇先走。蘇剛出門，他就抄起桌上的酒瓶拍人家。他打起架來(lái)不要命。直到警察來(lái)了他還沒(méi)有停下，滿身是血，帶著逼人的英氣。 蘇問(wèn)他，怎樣看她這個(gè)朋友，他開(kāi)玩笑說(shuō)，怕飛的太遠(yuǎn)了，忘記自己在哪兒，所以就需要一個(gè)坐標(biāo)。蘇笑了，其實(shí)他也是蘇的坐標(biāo)，蘇守在無(wú)聊的現(xiàn)實(shí)里，讓他替自己流浪。第二天蘇去學(xué)校，他睡在客廳的沙發(fā)上。等蘇回來(lái)的時(shí)候，他已經(jīng)不見(jiàn)了。留下一張漫畫，一個(gè)妹妹的小女孩，腳踩小馬蹄，正在吃一片棉花糖。 蘇也不是沒(méi)有見(jiàn)他真心愛(ài)過(guò)。有一年的冬夜，有人砰砰敲蘇的門，他站在門外，胡子拉碴，蘇詫異地發(fā)現(xiàn)，他不在是初見(jiàn)面的那個(gè)面容蒼白眼神明亮的少年了，雖然，他還有蘇，依然年輕。蘇還是什么都沒(méi)說(shuō)，進(jìn)廚房先下兩包方便面，打兩個(gè)雞蛋，。他也什么都沒(méi)說(shuō)，埋頭吃完，在這個(gè)世界上，一個(gè)人愿意把他最難看的樣子給你看，你唯有心存感激。蘇看著他醉的不省人事的樣子，然后像哥們一樣照顧他。蘇什么也沒(méi)有問(wèn)，聽(tīng)他迷糊著嘟囔，真的走累了，要停下來(lái)了。可是蘇，還有誰(shuí)，會(huì)替我們流浪。 一瞬間，蘇突然就想要流淚。 再次接到他的電話，是在夏天，他說(shuō)，嘮叨要結(jié)婚了，去西寧吧。當(dāng)年一起去西藏的朋友全到齊了。幾年未見(jiàn)，這些當(dāng)初發(fā)誓一輩子在路上的人，大多數(shù)都停了下來(lái)，沒(méi)什么新鮮的，都是停在一個(gè)累的地方。那天，所有人除了蘇，都喝的酩酊大醉。 他們陸續(xù)回去了，蘇請(qǐng)了假，想多呆幾天，蘇問(wèn)他下一站去哪？他苦笑著，蘇，其實(shí)我也妥協(xié)了。 從西寧出發(fā)，沿著湟水泱泱，奇峰延綿。水鳥流連。這就是他所說(shuō)的峽谷。 他將手里的煙頭彈向遠(yuǎn)方，站起來(lái)說(shuō)，游泳去吧。蘇說(shuō)她沒(méi)有帶泳衣。他做了一個(gè)切的表情，跳進(jìn)了水里。像一條魚一樣，他游到蘇的面前，手抓住她的腳踝，蘇就防不勝防地落入水中。蘇聽(tīng)見(jiàn)他大笑，一瞬間就沒(méi)了脾氣。等到了傍晚的時(shí)候，一切變得安靜。蘇看他在夕陽(yáng)下平靜的面孔，淚流滿面。 幾年又過(guò)去了，蘇的生活變得平靜，他也再?zèng)]有聯(lián)系過(guò)蘇，但蘇知道，他過(guò)得很好，滿大街的報(bào)紙上都是他的名字，蘇笑笑，沒(méi)什么想法。 蘇混的不錯(cuò)，卻總覺(jué)得缺少了點(diǎn)什么?；蛟S，生活是一灘百般無(wú)聊的河水，蘇并沒(méi)有把他游成江湖。 大學(xué)畢業(yè)之后，蘇繼續(xù)出發(fā)，從湟水往河的西邊走，穿過(guò)西寧城，穿過(guò)西峽谷，穿過(guò)日月山，穿過(guò)青海湖，穿過(guò)湟水發(fā)源的地方，當(dāng)年絲綢之路經(jīng)過(guò)的地方······當(dāng)踏上歸途的時(shí)候，蘇看見(jiàn)峽谷那張熟悉的面孔時(shí)想，其實(shí)那么多年，都是自己站在原地，看世界流浪。