Lady Lazarus

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by Sylvia Plath
     I have done it again.
     One year in every ten
     I manage it——
     A sort of walking miracle, my skin
     Bright as a Nazi lampshade,
     My right foot
     A paperweight,
     My face a featureless, fine
     Jew linen.
     Peel off the napkin
     O my enemy.
     Do I terrify?——
     The nose, the eye pits, the full set of teeth?
     The sour breath
     Will vanish in a day.
     Soon, soon the flesh
     The grave cave ate will be
     At home on me
     And I a smiling woman.
     I am only thirty.
     And like the cat I have nine times to die.
     This is Number Three.
     What a trash
     To annihilate each decade.
     What a million filaments.
     The peanut-crunching crowd
     Shoves in to see
     Them unwrap me hand and foot——
     The big strip tease.
     Gentlemen, ladies
     These are my hands
     My knees.
     I may be skin and bone,
     Nevertheless, I am the same, identical woman.
     The first time it happened I was ten.
     It was an accident.
     The second time I meant
     To last it out and not come back at all.
     I rocked shut As a seashell.
     They had to call and call
     And pick the worms off me like sticky pearls.
     Dying Is an art, like everything else.
     I do it exceptionally well.
     I do it so it feels like hell.
     I do it so it feels real.
     I guess you could say I've a call.
     It's easy enough to do it in a cell.
     It's easy enough to do it and stay put.
     It's the theatrical Comeback in broad day To the same place, the same face, the same brute Amused shout:
     'A miracle!' That knocks me out.
     There is a charge For the eyeing of my scars, there is a charge For the hearing of my heart It really goes.
     And there is a charge, a very large charge For a word or a touch Or a bit of blood Or a piece of my hair or my clothes.
     So, so, Herr Doktor.
     So, Herr Enemy.
     I am your opus,
     I am your valuable,
     The pure gold baby
     That melts to a shriek.
     I turn and burn.
     Do not think I underestimate your great concern.
     Ash, ash You poke and stir.
     Flesh, bone, there is nothing there
     A cake of soap,
     A wedding ring,
     A gold filling.
     Herr God, Herr Lucifer Beware Beware.
     Out of the ash I rise with my red hair And I eat men like air